My Year End Wrap~

I wish I could say I beat a lot of games this year when realistically I only finished a few games:Ghost of Tsushima, Tales of black forest, Mandemon, Silent Hill the Message, and Remothered: Broken Porcelain. That’s not an impressive list, I know. On the contrary, Steam reminded me I played 30 games in total. 17 of them were demos. Now that I think of it, I did replay Nightcry and Shenmue III and started up a bunch of games. I suppose that is considered gaming, but yeah, the graph below doesn’t lie. I didn’t play all that much. Life got in the way…

graph for 2024 on Steam
Gaming Sessions on Steam

During days I don’t play games, I spend more time reading and watching movies to balance things out. Some notable movies I watched were Alien Anthology and Planet of the Apes trilogy.  Recently I also finished Claymore the anime series. As for books, you can read the blog posts here:

I also read two children’s books that are full of wisdom: The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry and Coraline by Neil Gaiman. This brings me to the topic: why didn’t I publish more blog posts?  Why did I downgrade my blog plan and not renew my domain? The answer is simple: any down time I have, I try to give my eyes a rest from the screen, which I learned recently from an ophthalmologist that I don’t blink enough when I stare at the screen and that I have narrow angles eyes which explains my constant headaches and eye pressure. Left untreated, I could go blind. Luckily, I had surgery, so I will be okay. Secondly, I have been wanting to do something more relaxing. One of my passions is to become a better cook but that hasn’t been too successful since planning and gathering ingredients can be so time consuming. It took me several trials and errors to get my mom’s chicken soup right. When I did achieve it, I felt so happy. Yet, I still have a long way to go to build a book of recipes that I could come home to.

Despite investing less time with this blog, I am feeling excited for the New Year. I still plan to tackle my backlog and play at my own pace. Blog whenever I can. So far, I am ending the year with Tales of Symphonia. After Tales of Symphonia, I will play Death Mark II. Then I am looking forward to playing Xandu Next.  In addition to my backlog, I am adding Spirit of the North and Deadly Premonition 2. Here are the rest of my list for next gaming year:

  • The Bookwalker (Steam)
  • Teslagrad 2 (Steam)
  • Tales of Berseria (Steam)
  • Tales of Vesperia (Ps4)
  • Tales of Xesteria (Digital psn)
  • Songs of Horror (Digital psn)

Initially, I started this blog with a title: “Older games have more charm” because I want to replay Parasite Eve on the Ps1. Unfortunately, time flies so quickly that I never got the chance to play it and review it for Christmas. I learned that If you want to enjoy a game you stick to it and play it thoroughly despite all of the distraction from video games sales and releases. For instance, I want to play Unicorn Overlord, but it’s only made for consoles. I don’t really own a Switch or a PS5, so it might be hard to play those exclusive games. I have thought of investing in Switch 2 when it does come out or a Switch. But I don’t know yet because I am also interested in Steam deck since I spend more time on Steam than any other sites. Another game I am interested in purchasing is Tales of Grace remastered. There are tons of cool-looking games coming out which makes it difficult to focus on a game. So, whenever I start up a new game, I give myself about 45 minutes. If I am still not into the game then I just drop it. I don’t feel the pressure to complete games anymore.

Anyway, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Hopefully, you are enjoying a good game. I know I have been enjoying Tales of Symphonia remastered very much!

brrr.. it’s cold

Picture credits: Featured image is Presea from Tales of Symphonia

Remothered: Broken Porcelain Review

If I have to summarize the plot of this game, I probably couldn’t, and it was not as if there wasn’t a story.  There was so much telling and less showing that I started to daydream midway. Just imagine listening to a dry history class lecture. Are you going to retain any information? Probably not unless it affects you in some way.

You see, I don’t know what it’s like to have a bad father. The dad in this game is SUPER EVIL. But I do know what it’s like not to “have” a dad presence around. That doesn’t make him evil. For this reason, I didn’t find the plot mind-boggling. However, I do agree with the story that there’s a monster in every businessman.

Men in suit=evil!

What’s funny is that I didn’t quite grasp the story until playing the second installment. I suppose the developer decided to lay out the story because the first one wasn’t clear. From the beginning, we get a recap of the first game. After that, the evil dad kept divulging his dirty laundry to the protagonist. Is it Jennifer or Celeste?  I don’t know what the real name of the protagonist is anymore. Despite my dissatisfaction with the story, I still enjoyed Remothered: Broken Porcelain. The hide-and-seek portion was fun. I like exploring the hotel and having a female best friend. You know, being a delinquent adolescent, having dreams, and breaking the norm. It’s a euphoric feeling.

Relaxing scene
A rose for you

Unfortunately, I don’t classify myself as being a part of the LGBT community. So, the romantic scene in this game didn’t really mean anything to me. However, I appreciate it because we don’t see a lot of this type of narrative in video games.

Romantic scene

As far as the gameplay, I mentioned briefly that I enjoyed the hiding and exploring part. This was until I unlocked the special “moth” power. This power puts players into first-person view. It reminded me of the game, Amy, where you control things with your mind. I don’t like first-person view games. That’s why I was a little disappointed in the game.

So, if the story and gameplay are okay, what makes this game special? The answer is the artwork. I like the monster and character designs. I like the atmosphere of the game. Lastly,  I like collecting the trading cards.  I have a few more to collect.

Overall, the game was enjoyable, but it would have been great if it was more suspenseful and mysterious. So, if you are a true survival horror fan, you should still check it out.

Shenmue III Is Disappointingly Fun

Previously on my blog, I mentioned that I am replaying Shenmue III. Now I explain why it is not as good as its predecessors.

One unique trait about me is that I can find entertainment in the most mundane things in life. For example, I enjoy reading equipment operation manuals for work.  Why?  Because I have to amuse myself if I want to retain boring information. The more I understand how things operate, the higher the chance I will do my job well. I can also tackle the unpredictability when I do face a problem. Like Ryo Hazuki, the protagonist in Shenmue III, sometimes you have to take matters into your own hands. It’s necessary whether you like it or not. Of course, I am speaking figuratively. In real life, I can barely handle a screwdriver to unscrew a machine. I am sure that with a little practice, I can become a pro in no time.

Ryo never giving up
I love the determination!

However, being determined and goal-oriented is a double-edged sword. You may fall into the things you despise when you are too fixated on a goal. Ryo is determined to avenge his father’s death. He doesn’t realize he is becoming Lan Di. Lan Di is the main villain in the game.

Lan Di doing martial arts
Is Lan Di really a bad guy?

In Shenmue II, Ryo is greeted with a question. A man asked him where do rivers go. The answer is the ocean, its mother. It means it is better to take the natural course and enjoy the journey. Death will come naturally. No need to speed it up.  That’s just about what you do in Shenmue. You go with the flow. Sometimes, I forget Ryo is an angry teenage boy who is grieving about his father’s murder. The pursuit to hunt down Lan Di becomes an enlightening adventure. Shenmue and Shenmue II illustrate that point clearly in game design, which I will go into detail later. For now, I will mainly talk about Shenmue III.

Winner
One more game at the arcade

Having spent 30 hours in Bailu, the first section of Shenmue III, I did everything I could.  This was the section I liked most in the entire game. I enjoyed the escape from city life. I felt the developers concentrated on this first area more than the second half. Everything flows well. Side games and side quests didn’t feel unnecessary as they incorporated well with the main plot. I thought the game should have ended here. Ryo’s story ends when he stops pursuing Lan Di. He realizes there is more to life than falling into a cycle of revenge.

Shenhua and Ryo staring at the river
Peaceful

Unfortunately, the saga doesn’t end simply because Ryo found wisdom. Ryo is too young to walk the path of enlightenment.  If I can recall, the ending to this game wasn’t satisfying. I beat the game back in 2019. This left me not caring if there will be a Shenmue IV. The story could have ended with a nice date. You finally have a conversation with the mysterious girl you kept seeing in the first game. And that’s where Shenmue III went wrong. Once Ryo enters the city, the story becomes cliché.

Ryo speaking to shenhua
Hard to follow story with all the mini game distractions

I wouldn’t necessarily call a game bad because of its weak plot. A game can still be good for its gameplay. However, it could be a problem when it disrupts the flow of the story. In this case, the game becomes less cinematic. It turns more into a dumping ground for miniature games. It reminds me a lot of a slot machine. Most of the time, you need a little luck even to win the smallest prize. Completing capsule sets and winning Lucky Hit can be such a pain. Sometimes, hard work gets you nowhere. Winning the grand prize is based on chance. I do feel like a gamer in this game. I’m gambling with my time and that is not a good thing.

Chobu-chan wanted poster
Another mini game where you hunt for this little guy.

You see, in Shenmue II, the concept of slowing down makes a lot of sense. There were many occasions when Ryo had to stop what he was doing. He needed to get a job, gamble, chase someone down, and complete errands. I can see how gamers complained about working inside a video game. It can get mundane. In Shenmue I and II, I didn’t mind so much. But in Shenmue III, it started to bother me. Nothing new was introduced in the second half portion of the game. The only positive addition to the franchise is chopping wood. At least you get the acknowledgment and recognition for your hard work. You receive praise every time you successfully chop wood, and the background music elevates your mood. Who wouldn’t want to go to work feeling like a winner? 

You have to work inside a video game. You also have to learn patience. This relates to the earlier concept I mentioned about following the natural course in life. Without discipline and patience, he cannot master a martial art skill.   In Shenmue II, you see Ryo dusting off books. He also catches leaves at Man Ho Temple. These activities serve as a distraction from pursuing vengeance. Cleaning is a meditation process for emotional healing.  Likewise, in Shenmue III, Ryo must complete Master Feng’s errands. Only then does Master Feng teach a new martial arts skill to Ryo. This skill is needed for the story to progress.

reaching out for steam buns and wine
Steam buns are a form of currency

The first step is to bring him a bottle of wine and steam buns. He only talks if there is wine and a steam bun. Once you complete the task. Then he wants to drink an expensive wine that costs 2000 yuan. Luckily, you don’t have to grind for money by chopping wood, a gaming mechanic introduced early in the game. You can sell the fish, pawn items, gamble, and sell herbs to complete the task. It’s the game’s way of directing players to try out all the mini-games within the game. Earning 2000 yuan is a challenge but not impossible.  Another important aspect of the game is leveling up martial arts skills: Attack, Endurance, and Kung Fu. Ryo needs to be strong. That is why Master Feng made him catch ducks as a training exercise.  He needs to take one step at a time before he can face his opponent.

All of these errands lead to a conclusion about the game. Players must work hard. You need to put in the time if you want to make things happen. You have to be careful because you can end up as a wandering martial artist or, even worse, a murderer. In the second half of the game, I did not find a purpose to all the mini-game distractions. The magic of Shenmue seems to be missing in the third installment.

Shenhua reading
Maybe I am reading way too hard between the lines

It made me wonder whether Shenmue IV is necessary. What will Ryo do once he defeats Lan Di? Have you played this game? Let me know your thoughts.

Blog’s New Year Resolution

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Drifting Where the Wind Takes Me

Some may not have noticed, but for those who look forward to my blog weekly, thank you. Normally I publish weekly, but it seems like there’s always a lot going on toward the end of the year with the holiday around the corner, and I wish that was my excuse for taking a small hiatus. Honestly, I lack the motivation to blog after doing extensive research about SEO, marketing, and web design. More importantly, I took the time to contemplate what I wanted out of blogging and asked if I was still enjoying it. If I were to be honest, not so much. I enjoy blogging on WordPress but I don’t like how it penalized the blogger for not engaging with other bloggers by commenting on their blogs and hitting the like and follow button. It takes a lot of my energy to reach out to people and when it doesn’t reciprocate, you get that feeling of rejection. Too many rejections make it feel like is it even worth it.

I just love getting my heart burned, it builds resistance but I rather do it in video games. It’s more enjoyable because I know not to take it seriously.

Blogging is becoming more like work and most sane people run away from work. That’s why I don’t work for the gaming industry. I am pretty sure I would run away from it too. All work no play is crazy. But that’s the marvelous thing about the world is that: “we are all in it together” LOL. I digress. Going back to my blog, perhaps, the audience I am trying to reach may very well be too busy gaming because gamers play games. It’s that simple. So that is why I have been hanging out at Steam, playing Divinity Original Sin Enhanced Edition. It’s quite entertaining and it gives me something to look forward to each day. Great story+great gameplay +great soundtracks=A+++! I believe they are an indie studio but with triple-A qualities. As mentioned in my previous blog post, I have been bewitched by the game! I also learned that the studio is accustomed to making educational and casino games, which explains a lot about my newfound addiction! I love learning and gambling with my time “recklessly”, but at least I am having fun. I enjoy uploading screenshots of my gameplay over on Steam’s account. Here, one sample of my screenshots:

The prisoner’s dialogue made me laugh hard. I suppose gaming is like prison and I am already crazy! Thank you for bringing this awareness to me 😀

Steam makes it enjoyable to capture those fun silly moments in games. Press F12 to take pictures. I even thought of joining a Girl Gamer club on Steam to be more “social” and less “crazy” but then I looked at the comment section and I stopped. I would be walking into a trap. From what I observed, I don’t think half of the members are even legit and the way they talk is so lewd. So here I am back in my little corner. Doing my own thing. It’s a shame though, I really like Steam’s interface.

Little Shopping Video Game Haul

I took advantage of November Steam’s sale and purchased: Gris, Remothered: Porcelain, and Tales of the Black Forest. After much thought about Remothered: Porcelain, I caved in and bought it. It’s out of my mind and out of sight. The sales marketing tactic works! I shouldn’t have to make things complicated by being indecisive about a purchase, but time is valuable and I have a bad habit of finishing everything thoroughly. Also, I decided to pick up a book to read: The Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follet. I read a few chapters and it feels like it’s written for a movie. One of my political science teachers once said…if you want to know what the book is about just read the introduction, and that’s what I did to the Pillars of the Earth. I learned that the author imagined his book making it into a motion picture. Is there a movie out there based on the book that I am not aware of? I might just pick up the movie but then on a second thought, nah. I discovered the book because of the game, which ironically there is no real gameplay to it. So, I said, well if I am “playing” for the story might as well… pick up the book. That was my logic! I still plan on playing the game because I like the illustration. Why is it so hard to make a decision sometimes?

Games I Am Looking Forward To

  • Dragon Dogma II
  • Death Mark II
  • Eiyuden Chronicle: Hundred Heroes
  • Granblue Fantasy Relink
  • Elden Ring DLC: Shadow of the Erdtree

Well, that’s all I have to say for now. Thank you to those who tuned into this blog. I hope you have a wonderful holiday and that my craziness hasn’t scared you away!

PARANORMASIGHT: The Seven Mysteries of Honjo Review–I Found A Good Soap

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I Quit Trying to Reduce My Gaming Backlog

You know it does kind of suck being born around Christmas, especially if you are a kid. My birthday gift was often lumped with Christmas presents. In my household, every Christmas, everyone got a barbie doll, including my brothers. Talk about gender equality! Let’s just say… my mom was practical and quite fair. One time, we got a PlayStation instead of barbies so everyone just play games on PlayStation and that is how I became a “gamer”. No it happened before that. Actually, I fell in love with a dolphin simulator game I played at the elementary school’s library. But looking back, I have always enjoyed spending hours solving puzzles or playing computer games and that habit has not died. Now, as a childless full-grown adult (and yes I emphasize childless to explain why I have so much free time for gaming), it doesn’t bother me that my birthday is close to Christmas because there’s nothing I really want. The perfect birthday is peace and quiet and a good game. In fact, I already have a decent amount of games to go through!

So what is my New Year Resolution for a happier and better me? Stop stressing about trying to reduce my gaming backlog. Play what I can without turning it into a chore. So here is my list on top of my head:

  • Eyuiden Rising (PC)
  • Hollow Knight (PS4)
  • Tales of Vesperia (PS4)
  • Tales of Zestiria (Ps4)
  • AI: Sominum Files (PC)
  • Deedlit in Wonder Labyrinth (PC)
  • Whisper of Machines (PC)
  • Silver Case (PC)
  • Silver Case II (PS4)
  • Soma (PC)
  • Elden Ring (Ps5)
  • Resident Evil 7 (Ps4)
  • Ace Attorney (Ps4)
  • Sakura Wars (Ps4)
  • Dragon Age Origins (Ps3)
  • Mass Effects (ps3)
  • Peace Walker (ps3)

I rarely make a list of games I want to complete for the year. Who am I to kid? I never stick to a schedule, but I am trying. Games in bold are games that I am currently playing. Games I crossed out means I have a hard time getting into. Maybe I will play it when I am in the right mood. It did take me about seven years to finally play Tales of Xillia. I remember there were several occasions I tried to play. If you force yourself to play games it will become work and that is one big reason why I do not stream. Plus, I find that writing my thoughts out is more meditative. In the end, I like to talk about the games and not much about me. I think readers who have been following me know by now why I stick to blogging. But if you are new to my blog, you can check out my reasons here.

There are a ton of other games I want to add to my list. Some new and some old. Yep, it seems like my backlog is not going anywhere and I gave up on trying to reduce it.

Red Bow Review: A Nice Bittersweet Treat

I heard in Japan there is a vending machine for everything. Is there a vending machine for fast games? A quick game that will give you a mental boost?  Yes, this game is very short. Depending where you purchase the game (I bought mine on Steam for around $2), it wasn’t a huge loss. I spent a few hours total with the game. Not because it was difficult, it was because I had to restart the game several times when I got stuck. But if you follow a guide, you can beat it in an hour. So game design is quite questionable.

The game, in my opinion, is designed for those who love trophy hunting, and who appreciate short sweet stories. These days, you are considered badass if you play indie games while at the same time accumulating trophies so you can show off to your gaming friends.  But if you are not one of those who care for that–no need to fret, the game has some depth.  You play as a little girl who is more like a little boy (she does not hesitate to get rid of enemies in the most brutal way).  Humor mixed with serious topics such as love, loss, and death will surely leave you with a lingering aftertaste once you beat it.

In conclusion, the game ends with a powerful message.   One, in particular, is the message for the ladies: Stop asking your partner if you are pretty.  The only person who knows that answer is you.  But I am pretty sure the lady has her own story that needs to be explored.  Overall, it’s still a heartfelt game worth playing if you have a few bucks to spare. I had a few laughs with the game so it was worth the purchase.

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