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My Top 3 Fav. Video Games

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I have been suffering from writer’s block ever since I came back from visiting my family. It is not necessarily a bad thing.  It is just hard getting back into writing mode. I  need to learn how to build a writing momentum again. Humans are indeed a creature of habit. No wonder some of us are threatened by AI.

To get back into writing mode, I thought I’d do something casual. Let’s talk about video games because life is too short to bottle things up and be serious all the time.

I thought long and hard about this subject. How do I know what my favorite games are? Then I asked myself, what games do I keep going back to? How many copies of the same game do I have? What games left a huge impression on me? I found the answers even though it was really hard because I enjoyed many games. So here are my top 3 in no particular order.

1) Dark Souls II

I know Dark Souls II has a bad reputation among some soul fans, but I could care less. Dark Souls II is my favorite out of the franchise. I like the lore, the character creation, stage and monster design than the first one. So you can say that it’s actually the art direction of Naotoshi Zin and the lead art concept design by Daisuke Satake that stood out to me. It’s like playing inside a fairy-tale book with an edge. And if I can recall, I did jokingly refer Dark Souls II as my abusive lover in this blog post:Dark Souls II Rant: Rings and the Test of Patience as I explained why I kept going back to it.

Close-up shot of an enemy. It’s deadly cute (Image from Dark Souls II Scholar of the First Sin).

But I’ll be honest with you folks, I sort of got burnt out with the souls game or any soul-like games. Lately, I rather live life by just going with the flow instead of swimming against a strong current. So maybe Shenmue 2 is actually my favorite game. I am learning how to stop and smell the roses and be kinder to myself.

2) Nier Gestalt/Replicant

According to Yoko Taro, he is a weirdo and only weird people love this game, so that makes me weird, too. Because who would lock themselves away in a room and ponder deep, life questions, and say one of their best summer vacation experiences is inside a video game? What I enjoyed most is how synchronized the music is in each area of the game.  I lost count of how many times I replayed the abandoned factory section. Sometimes I just kill robots by following the rhythm of the music. To me the game design is art itself. For a post-apocalyptic world, it sure feels safer than when it was full of civilization, and I didn’t even know I was playing as a mass murderer!

I know I am not the only one who felt like an @sshole for killing the robot (Image from Nier Replicant).

3) Parasite Eve 1 & 2

I am sorry. I can’t decide whether I should pick Parasite Eve or Parasite Eve 2. Oddly, I found myself replaying Parasite Eve 2 multiple times. I like the stage design and the overall ambient atmosphere. Also, Aya Brea is more experienced in the second installment. There is something cool about her navigating alone and a certain quietness to it. Perfect for a big introvert like me who can’t think in noisy places. I also really like the monster design. The battle with the Burner still terrifies me to this day. I am going to replay this game sometime soon.

So, if you were to ask me what my favorite games are, now you know. So what about you? What are your top 3 favorite games?

May’s Books, Games, and Creative Projects

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May Calendar

May has arrived. After watching several videos on journaling, I decided to try making my own calendar book in the beginning of this year. The first few months of page design weren’t pretty. But I think I can proudly say May is my best! Anyway, creating a calendar each month is a fun activity that takes me away from the screen. I also want to try junk journaling or go back to pastel drawing. Watching other people’s creative works is so inspiring. With that being out of the way, let’s talk about what I have been playing reading and playing.

Reading

I finished Call of the Wild by Jack London and Agnes Grey by Anne Brontë. Currently reading My Antonia by Willa Cather. Out of the three books, even though I have not finished My Antonia, I am enjoying it the most. The pioneer spirit of working immigrants is very inspiring, and the writing is just so beautiful and full of compassion. However, I found the dialogue between the characters shockingly racist. For instance, I didn’t know what a Lapland woman is until I read this book: “Lapland women were fat and ugly, and had squint eyes, like Chinese…mother says Norwegians up North are always afraid their boys will run after them (p.192, Bantam Classics).” Um… okay. If they are so ugly why would the boys run after them? It sounds like a bunch of girls gossiping nonsense. For the most part, I enjoy the imagery of the prairie. There are many descriptions of nature that I could visualize in my mind. People back then spent more time outdoors, and perhaps that is what draws me to the book.

I have added more books to my reading list ever since visiting the local bookstores. There are so many books I want to read, but oddly, I find it more fun to write about video games for this blog. I don’t know why.

Gaming

Last month, I spent time with Trinity Souls of Zill O’LL. I am halfway now. I know it’s taking me forever to complete since I don’t play the game every day and only about 40 minutes a session. It works for me. And since I already achieved the platinum years ago, I don’t stress about trying to get everything in one playthrough. I focus on the story, and I must say, I love the story! It reminds me of Oedipus the Rex, which happens to be one of my favorite plays. Areus, the protagonist, has one mission in life–to kill his evil Grandpa! It has a mixture of Greek and Norse mythologies. Everything that I like, and this scene, a fighting (flirting) scene, is so fun to watch:

I also like how the game includes an encyclopedia of the bestiary, characters, quests, journals, etc. It is so organized. The best part is the Gallery menu. You can watch movies (cutscenes), look at paintings and listen to the music. I am still debating whether I want to do a video game essay or review once I complete it. It’s very time-consuming, I realized. If you have not played this game and you are a fan of JRPGs, I highly recommend this game.

I also watched an entire Let’s Play video of Silent Hill 3. I remember not enjoying it as much, but it’s more of a user experience problem. I am surprised I beat the game back then, even though the camera gave me motion sickness. Watching it again, I appreciate its artistry, symbolism, and stage design. The level of detail in the monster design is amazing. I also understand why so many people like Heather. She is stylish, edgy, and doesn’t mind being in her own company. She blazes in the game without flinching–almost like she is so used to the nightmare. Towards the end, she questions herself: has she gone crazy? I guess that is what makes the game a psychological horror. I still prefer Silent Hill 2, though. I just don’t like too many references to the woman’s anatomy. It makes me queasy.

In relation to Silent Hill 3, I do want to mention that I haven’t seen anyone talk about Audrey Rose, a film by Robert Wise. I watched it on Amazon Prime a few years ago, and it reminds me so much of the story revolving Heather. It’s a psychological horror that discusses the concept of reincarnation. The way the film was shot terrified me. If you have not seen this horror film, you should. You can find it on Tubi and Youtube, free with ads. I wonder if I am the only one who notices the resemblance.

Final Thoughts

Gaming has been quite selective for me. I know that I have a few games I need to revisit, but I am not sure if I have the right mind set to enjoy them properly. Lately, I prefer something more adventurous and nourishing. As for books, I dropped Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follet. I’m just not feeling it. So I don’t want to waste anymore of my time with the book. This approach to my hobbies makes me happier.

Replaying Trinity: Souls of Zill O’ll (PS3)

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Trinity Souls of Zill O'll manual

Once upon a time…I stumbled upon an article written by a well-known video game website that gave Trinity: Souls of Zill O’ll a bad rating. According to the video game journalist, the lead character (Areus) is bland, and the gameplay is boring. I remember thinking that I must have bad taste because I really enjoyed the game and liked the protagonist. He is half-elf and half-human who grew up facing severe prejudice.

In other words, he is an outsider. I suppose with this type of game, you have to be the type who doesn’t mind role playing a character different from yourself. You play for the art, music and story. You play for the entire package.

These days, I don’t bother reading game reviews written by big video game sites, nor do I take game reviews seriously written by gamers who were still toddlers during the PS3 era. It’s a whole different generation. Although I must say, I think it’s cool to see younger folks appreciating older games.

Anyway, I have been replaying this game and would love to give this game a proper review. It will take me some time, though. So my blog will be quiet for a bit, but I am sure there is more than enough content out there to keep you from boredom. In the meantime, here is the awesome opening to the game. I watched it several times.

P.S.

There was a daily prompt that asked “What job would you do for free?” I have been writing about games for about 10 years now on my free time. If it’s not passion then I don’t know what it is.

Spring Reading and Gaming Update

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Little leaves sprouting for spring

The sky is blue, the leaves are sprouting, and the birds are chirping. I can’t believe Spring is here, and my blog turned 8 years old! Thanks, WordPress, for the notification. I forgot my own blog’s birthday.

This year feels like I have been reading more, and I like it that way. It’s more calming with a cup of tea–even the games I am playing are less demanding. I completed The Count of Monte Cristo, which I started reading in late December. I could have finished the book sooner, but I was reading other things in between. During that time, I also started reading Claymore, the manga. As for Monster, I stopped at volume 4. I will resume once I have finished the other books. I didn’t like jumping from one book to the next. I realized this method didn’t work for me. I like to take my time to stop and think what I’ve read.

After reading The Count of Monte Cristo, I am going to read something shorter.

On top of my reading list, I have added Jane Eyre, Agnes Grey, and Wuthering Heights. I have yet to read all three books by the Brontë sisters. It’s my way of celebrating International Women’s History Month.

Game Update

I have been eying Undernaunts Labyrinth of the Yomi for a long time… Thanks to my fiancé, I received it as a gift. The problem with Undernaunts physical copy for the PS5 is that I heard there is a bug that prevents players from progressing. I am not sure if it has been fixed as of 2026. Well, I suppose I will have to try! Sometimes I wonder if it’s worth it anymore to buy physical copies. I am sure the Switch version is worth it for gamers who like collecting physical copies.

Instead of being an astronaut, you play as an undernaut. The title is clever.

In addition to my gaming collection, I am currently playing PARANORMASIGHT: The Mermaid’s Curse. So far, I am not liking it as much. The reviews on Steam’s page are over hyped. I wonder if Square Enix staff wrote some of those positive reviews to boost sales. It is a bit disappointing for the price, but I will shut my mouth and try to complete the game. I believe I am near the end.

Stop lying. It’s about the money…

It’s all right. I am not all that angry. We all know these days, everyone is feeling the blow of inflation except for the delusional 1%. But my wallet hurts when I play a subpar adventure game. For $24.99, you could buy several adventurous horror games out there for the price of one during Steam’s sale. I remember for $1.99, I had a blast with The Cat Lady. This visual novel feels like reading an encyclopedia on the historical context surrounding Japanese mermaids. And the over the top theatrical character’s animation is not cutting it. It’s annoying.

Oh, I sure appreciate the subtle insult. Once again another game poking fun at its audience.

That’s a wrap up for my Spring reading and gaming update as of March. Until next time, be well.

Resident Evil 0 Remastered Is Classically Beautiful and Fun

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Rebecca looking up at Billy

This is the fourth time I’ve played the game back to back. By now, I recall all the puzzles and the locations of the enemies. I love it so much that I am going to shoot for 100 percent! It might take me the entire year or more, since I don’t want to get burnt out because that will ruin the joy. However, I played the game enough to finally write a proper review. The gameplay is as addictive as Dark Souls to me! The lack of item boxes and the Resident Evil “report card” at the end make me want to become better at the game. It can be quite the sport.

Grading Rank Screen
Rank A on Normal Mode

A lot of people complained about the lack of item boxes. Having to haul your items because each character only has 6 slots to carry. Some items, such as the shotgun and the crossbow, take up two slots! Although I think part of my frustration comes from not knowing whether I should keep the items with me when I move on to the next area. That was me being greedy. On a side note, I do want to point out that the level difficulty determines item’s availability. On hard mode, there wouldn’t be a need to haul items since it’s scarce. However, this is bad if you run out of ammo towards the final boss!

Rebecca standing over all the items
I do feel the pain having to haul these items but it didn’t bother me too much.

Once I memorized the game layout and its sequence, I became more efficient. For instance, right before moving on from the training facility to the lab, I made sure that Rebecca was equipped with the crossbow because I didn’t want to backtrack and face the aggressive monkeys. They do re-spawn once an event has passed. I tried to avoid at all costs to conserve ammo and herbs. More importantly, save time. The longer you take to complete the game, the more it will hurt your rank.

Crossbow taking up two slots
I forget to mention that there is a limit to how many items you can leave.

In normal mode, it takes two shotgun shells to take down each hunter; one acid grenade for each spider; and one standard handgun bullet on each zombie if you aim for the head. Also, it’s not always necessary to shoot enemies if you don’t need to–like the leech man. Just run around it quickly.

The limited herbs also made it difficult to navigate, since Rebecca takes more hits than Billy. So here is where I had to strategize. Let Billy clear the path since he is more of a tank character. Rest assured, Rebecca is not a useless weak character. There will be time for her to shine. Not only is she skilled at mixing herbs, but she didn’t abandon Billy when she had the chance to, despite knowing he is a convict.

Rebecca caring for Billy
Billy rescued Rebecca many times, in the end, it was her turn to save him.
Billy lifting Rebecca for item
Great teamwork.

Lastly, I want to talk about the puzzles. I didn’t have to look up online once on how to solve them. It made the gameplay experience seamless. For me, the most frustrating thing to me in a game are cryptic puzzles like the ones in Goetia and Song of Horror.

Visual and Sound

The cherry on top of this game is the atmosphere and the sound. I feel so relaxed playing the game. As I mentioned in one of my posts, the sound of switching items between two characters is like ASMR to me. The train area is my favorite, and I wish it is longer because I enjoy the sound of the pouring rain, and the scenes are just stunningly beautiful, but you can say the same goes for the rest of the game. The training facility has an ominous, evil presence, but the lighting makes it so calming.

Rebecca and Billy looking up
Marveling at the equipment in the Training Facility.
Billy wearing prisoner outfit
The yellow and blue is so nice. What an artistic lab.
Billy walking towards train
Taking the train from lab to Treatment Plant.
Rebecca looking at the elevator
Factory elevator after defeating Tyrant. Red light =dangerous.
Rebecca walking up the steps
I like the green light reflection on the wall in the Treatment Plant.

All of the area was beautiful to me. I took over 300 screenshots!

Final Thoughts

Whenever I play a good game, I feel happy. It gives me something to look forward to at the end of the day or in the early morning. I love video games that make me feel alive, especially one that is strategic but not overly complex. Resident Evil 0 is my favorite game from the franchise. I guess to some people I have bad taste, but more so, I think I prefer something that has some technical limitations but is methodical. I wouldn’t like Resident Evil 0 as much if it did have an item box. It’ll remove the challenge and make it like any other survival horror game. Resident Evil 0 is unique. To me, it’s a good thing.

Date Night with Resident Evil 0 Remastered

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I had no intention of adding games to my digital game collection, but sometimes, on a whim, I would make a purchase. I purchased two games: Resident Evil 0 Remastered and Ni no Kuni II Revenant Kingdom. There was nothing in my Steam library that I was in the mood for. Sometimes changing games it’s like changing a wardrobe. And so, I picked Resident Evil 0 to play at night. A game with good sound effects is like a massage for the brain.

Rebecca in Capcom cheerleader outfit and Billy in a suit

I have played Resident Evil 0 on the GameCube back in the day, and I loved it, so this is not my first time playing the game. However, there is something about playing it when you are older. You see things differently. You start to pay attention to game design and learn why you liked it back then. For me in particular, I like a good, balanced game. And there is nothing more balanced between two characters, Billy Coen and Rebecca Chamber. They make a really good team.

Bad boy and a girl good always make a classic tale because it’s not always about romance, but about learning to get along.

“The name is Rebecca Chamber, but that’s Officer Chamber to you.” – Rebecca Chamber.

I really like that line. Actually, of all the female Resident Evil characters, I have always liked Rebecca the most. She is just relatable because she is brainy. So, I was always happy that Capcom made her the star in this survival horror game.

Sometimes I like to read reviews on the Steam page to see what others are saying about a video game, and it made me chuckle. The landscape of modern games has changed over the course of time due to vocal gamers. But that’s partially my fault. As a kid from the 90s, I was never the vocal type who gladly fill out the marketing questionnaire letter located in the sleeve of a video game case. I just thought games were a boy’s club only, especially when developer keep assuming the player is a little boy with a controller. The only reason why I know so many great titles is because of my brother, who happened to be my best friend growing up. Let’s just say my mother was on the stricter side when it comes to having friends outside of school hours.

So let’s talk about the gameplay, why it works for me and not for some “macho gamers”. For those who don’t know, art direction and the overall aesthetic of a game matter to me. The cinematic cutscenes just pull me in. I like a good suspense. I feel alerted. Something is not right about this train. Let’s go, Rebecca. Let’s go shoot some zombies in the head! Although I must confess, my aim is pretty bad. There is no assist aiming mode like in the new remakes! It has been a long time since I played this type of shooting game. I do miss it, surely. Games were harder back then.

I like the lighting and the color contrast.

Not only is the sound effect superb, but the clicking sound from switching in the game menu from partner to partner is also so relaxing. I like how it makes me feel like it is a co-op game, but it’s not a real co-op since you are the only player who is controlling these two characters. It’s a unique gameplay that relies on the player to switch from character to character to solve a puzzle. The gameplay is kind of romantic since both cannot survive without each other.

If you start on easy mode, there will be more items for you to carry. I didn’t like it, so I switched to normal mode and replayed the game. You only need enough to survive, and a little caution is good. It intensifies the experience and makes us a wiser player. What I appreciate is that you can use the herb without putting it into your inventory. It saves slots for other items. If you picked up too many items, you will run out of slots, and so you have to drop them. The problem is that when you drop them, they can easily get misplaced, especially if you saved the game and come back the next day!

There is a lot of backtracking, which relies on your memorization skills. I was shocked to hear that some people didn’t like that… Too slow, too boring? What do they expect, The House of the Dead? Actually, I like The House of the Dead, it’s one of the first-person view games that doesn’t make me sick! Well, maybe it’s because I don’t play arcade games for hours as I do at home, as if it’s a part-time job. Anyway, RE0 is A+ to me without making me cringe. So often, cute characters in video games are portrayed as some weird eye candy. Luckily, Rebecca has a brain and can hold a gun. She doesn’t look too bad either in the DLC cheerleader outfit. In fact, she is cheering for Capcom.

Well, I wish I had more to say, but that’s my thoughts for now. The rain is just so beautiful, don’t you think?

Demon’s Souls (Ps3): My Favorite Winter Game

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I am playing Demon’s Souls Remake (Ps5) and Demon’s Souls (Ps3) side by side for fun. Okay, I lied. I only beat the first boss, Phalanx in the first level of the remake. The majority of my time is spent on the Ps3 version. I am not abandoning the remake completely, though. I just don’t know if I will ever finish it.  So far, the atmosphere feels different. I prefer the cinematic opening to the original Demon’s Souls to the remake. The remake makes me feel as if I am about to play a brutal arcade game.  Demon’s Souls was never designed to be difficult just for the sake of being difficult. If you destroy the art, you destroy its meanings. The lines below become meaningless:

On the first day, man was granted a soul and with it, clarity

On the second day, upon earth was planted and irrevocable poison

A soul devouring demon

Of course, I am not here to talk badly about a remake that I have not completed. It’s still a decent game if you don’t mind the new cosmetics look, that is. Clearly, the immersive atmosphere of the game is destroyed. On the positive side, I must say, the gameplay feels fluid to me, and the new soundtrack is not bad. My favorite soundtrack from the new OST is the hero creation menu. However, I still prefer the original soundtrack. I think back in the day, I listened to One Who Craves Souls the most. Does that make me a demon?

This is why I spent more time with the Ps3 version. Revisiting this game made me realize why I liked it so much back then. I still like it. It’s like a pragmatic bible on how to live. If you are not careful, you could lose your soul. You might turn into a servant of the demon, trapped in the nexus for all eternity. Of course, Dark Souls is more of a polished Souls game than Demon’s Souls in terms of world building. And yet, the game is still very endearing to me. The atmosphere of Demon’s Souls has always been quite comforting to me. It feels like I am inside a twisted cathedral. It’s something the remake seems to fail at capturing.

I noticed the Demon’s Souls‘ official guide doesn’t include a map of the levels. It also lacks item locations compared to the other Souls games. I am not complaining, though. I only use a guide as a reference because I like to see a list of armor, weapons, items, and enemies.

The guide gives you enough information on how to play the game and build your character. It also put the walkthrough toward the end of the guide, which makes sense to me. Teach me what I need to know then send me off into the fog. Let me make mistakes and I’ll learn from it. There is also a perfect run walkthrough, but I don’t see the point in it. It’s not fun if you don’t explore things on your own. However, I can see someone doing it for speedrun. There is so much content, but it’s worth every dime.

P.S.

The Demon’s Souls deluxe edition also included the artwork and the original soundtrack for anyone who is curious.

Things that help Me Stay Calm

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anime style Asian girl with glasses reading a book

I like to keep track of the books I want to read on an Excel spreadsheet. This way, I can stay focused. So far, it has been working. I have been reading more. However, I didn’t enjoy checking off a book once I finished reading it. I started to feel like I was on a reading conquest. It was as if I were turning into a dark soul, losing sight of why I was reading. Was I trying to become the Scholar of the First Sin? So, this year I won’t abandon my list, but I will only refer to it when I need a reminder. It helps take off a huge mental load. Also, having books nearby and visible encourage me to pick up a book instead of my phone. Keeping up with current news can be tiring. Everything is just bad news.

I found more solace in books than in following the news, hoping that things would turn out for the better. Mass employment in the headlines? Europe potentially going to war because of Greenland? The price of groceries skyrocketing. Not a good sign. Anyway, I realized if the world is going to burn, I am just going to read books to stay sane. The books/manga I am currently reading are:

The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas
Dune by Frank Herbert
Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follet
Grimm’s Fairy Tales Volume III
Monster Volume IV by Naoki Urasawa

Here are some of the books I would love to read this year. Some books I have had for a while.

My Antonia by Willa Cather
The Time Machine by H.G. Wells
The Sea Wolf by Jack London
The Call of the Wild by Jackon London
Les Misérables by Victor Hugo
Coriolanus by Shakespeare

Gaming

As for games, I went back to Demon’s Souls (Ps3). It is probably the only game I will play for the entire year. It’s a peaceful, difficult game. What can I say? I am a slow gamer. Plus, I got to make time for others things too such as gathering healthy recipes. Although sometimes it feels like work.

I finished the demo of Trails in the sky 1st chapter. It was fun!

Final Thoughts

I hope you will find some solitary moments away from this chaotic world. It’s hard to escape to video games these days when real world events feel like a circus show. I guess everyone is a star in this crazy reality T.V show.

Note: Featured image is AI generated. I am impressed that it captured the right mood for this post. The funny thing it looks like she is wearing my old reading glasses. It’s broken now.

Setting Realistic Goals for the New Year

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Every year, I like to challenge myself by setting a goal. Normally, I set small achievable goals. But I never set small goals to achieve bigger goals. I want to do that for next year. My blog has been stagnant and small for quite some time. But that’s all right. I am still blogging all these years despite my “failure”. After all, my greatest motivation is my passion! I also have some personal goals I would love to achieve apart from this blog’s growth. I hope you will join me!

Reading Goal

I started The Left Hand of Darkness at the beginning of this year, but had to put it aside. I was waiting for that moment to be wowed. I heard it’s a great classic science fiction. I want to give the book another chance. However, that wasn’t the real reason why I picked it up. I don’t think I read enough books by female authors. I just happened to remember this book. A couple of years ago, a coworker said Ursula Le Guin is ahead of her time. Jotting down notes as I read would probably help me sort out this difficult book. I am already halfway. This will be one of my goals for next year.

Another book I plan to read next year is Dune by Frank Herbert. I have not seen the movie. What inspired me to read the book was actually from playing the Bookwalker, ironically. In the game, there is a book called the Heart of Sand. I was interested in its world-building. As the game was starting to build momentum, the game ended short.

game inspires my reading goal
The lack of gameplay in this game inspires me to pick up a book instead.

I love reading, but oddly, it makes me melancholic when I think too deeply. So I have to balance it out with gaming. That’s why I don’t mind playing silly games or simple puzzle games. I don’t always want to think abstractly unless there’s humor in it. Gaming helps me live a little when life is already so serious.

Gaming Goal

Sometimes, I feel like a kid in a candy store, getting all excited with so many cool games. Then I exhausted myself mentally on what to play. So my goal for next year is to stay focused on the games I already have in my Steam library. However, I did get sidetracked by all the demos out there. I tried Trails in the Sky: First Chapter, Rosewater, and Unicorn Overlord. They are all fun! Out of the demos, I’ve been enjoying the Trails in the Sky: First Chapter demo immensely. I have been wanting to play the series for a long time, but I shy away because of its length. I am certain that I am going to love the entire game. It has that JRPG charm.

Characters defining what a bracer does
I am always up for a feel-good type of game. The soundtrack is also pretty catchy!

I play demos as if I am trying food at the buffet. But my main course meal is Walking Dead Definitive Edition. I am on Season 2, episode 2. Been enjoying the game as well! I also plan to play.Hack//G.U. Last Recode. I am feeling nostalgia. A good laugh is the greatest medication in this chaotic world, but food is also important!

Cooking Goal

Planning meals has always been a struggle for me since food is not the first thing on my mind. I came to realize that cooking healthy meals requires some special attention. When I go out, there are not many healthy options to pick from for a quick meal. So I just eat apples and bananas. Fruits alone are not a balanced diet. So I have learn how to be more creative. I have been hunting down recipes online. I don’t expect myself to be a great cook overnight. But I do think finding good recipes is a good start. Practice makes perfect, and who doesn’t love food? The only issue with watching so many cooking channels on YouTube is that I ended up not cooking anything extravagant! An egg sandwich is quick and easy enough for me.

cooking goal to make sandwhiches
I came a long way from burnt toast! That I can boast!

Final Thoughts

These goals are challenging to me because they require me to focus. I pick challenging goals and things I am not so good at for a reason. We can’t grow and build resistance if we are complacent. For example, I am skilled at action-adventure games but not RPGs (strategic turn-based games). I read mainly classics, but have not read many science fiction books. I can cook breakfast meals, but I’d like to learn how to cook a fancy dinner. So, yeah, I purposely challenge myself. It makes life more interesting, and it humbles me. After all, a healthy mind makes the world a better place.

I hope this blog post inspires you in whatever goal you have next year. Whether it is small or big, I hope you achieve it!

Reevaluating Strength in Gaming and Media

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I realize representations in media do matter very much. If I had to choose a video game character I resemble most, it would be Elena from Pandora Tower. She has some form of disability but she makes it up with emotional strength and intelligence. However, the average people assume she is just a silent object. They also think she is just a support role. I never thought of her as a silent object. I thought she was pretty strong, and she has her own agenda–like saving the world using soft power. Maybe it’s time for people to reevaluate what strength means, especially in mainstream video games.

I noticed the discrimination when playing multiplayer games many years ago. I was playing DCUO. Somehow I ended up playing a support/buffer role. I felt smothered so I ventured off alone. Ever since, I have a hard time connecting with my peers.  Finding a group of passionate gamers, especially female players who appreciate games for their creativity and aesthetic is hard. It felt more alienating because I don’t play to win, and I don’t like being rough like the boys. Speed run and rank never meant anything to me in video games. I only care about them if I’m working on a trophy. I see video games as an entertaining art form, not to be conquered or won.

I Realized My Own Biases

During those years, playing games by myself made me realized something important. I once fell into the misconception that being female meant being the weaker sex. This was based on how people treated me in person. Well, looking back, I was considered small for my size. It’s hard to have confidence when you know your size can get eaten by a wolf. Yet, the “weaker sex” has nothing to do with intelligence. Intelligence is just another form of strength. And liking a certain type of game doesn’t show superiority. One is more relationship-based than strategy-based. That’s all there is to it.

“Women love romance-related content. It’s nothing new.”- from √Letter

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I disagree with the quote above. Growing up, I used to ask myself why I am not feminine enough. I spent a lot of my youth watching martial arts movies and T.V. series from Hong Kong.

Final Thoughts

I have considered other platforms. However, I like blogging the most, small as it may be. It’s quiet and it allows me to be reflective. I also learn more through reading–especially when it comes to exchanging information. It’s a form of creative expression to me, and I wish more gamers would blog than vlog or stream. You’d be surprised how much we’d learn about ourselves when we all take the time to think before we speak.

Note: Originally published 21, 2021; Revised November 18, 2025.