Spring Reading and Gaming Update

Little leaves sprouting for spring

The sky is blue, the leaves are sprouting, and the birds are chirping. I can’t believe Spring is here, and my blog turned 8 years old! Thanks, WordPress, for the notification. I forgot my own blog’s birthday.

This year feels like I have been reading more, and I like it that way. It’s more calming with a cup of tea–even the games I am playing are less demanding. I completed The Count of Monte Cristo, which I started reading in late December. I could have finished the book sooner, but I was reading other things in between. During that time, I also started reading Claymore, the manga. As for Monster, I stopped at volume 4. I will resume once I have finished the other books. I didn’t like jumping from one book to the next. I realized this method didn’t work for me. I like to take my time to stop and think what I’ve read.

After reading The Count of Monte Cristo, I am going to read something shorter.

On top of my reading list, I have added Jane Eyre, Agnes Grey, and Wuthering Heights. I have yet to read all three books by the Brontë sisters. It’s my way of celebrating International Women’s History Month.

Game Update

I have been eying Undernaunts Labyrinth of the Yomi for a long time… Thanks to my fiancé, I received it as a gift. The problem with Undernaunts physical copy for the PS5 is that I heard there is a bug that prevents players from progressing. I am not sure if it has been fixed as of 2026. Well, I suppose I will have to try! Sometimes I wonder if it’s worth it anymore to buy physical copies. I am sure the Switch version is worth it for gamers who like collecting physical copies.

Instead of being an astronaut, you play as an undernaut. The title is clever.

In addition to my gaming collection, I am currently playing PARANORMASIGHT: The Mermaid’s Curse. So far, I am not liking it as much. The reviews on Steam’s page are over hyped. I wonder if Square Enix staff wrote some of those positive reviews to boost sales. It is a bit disappointing for the price, but I will shut my mouth and try to complete the game. I believe I am near the end.

Stop lying. It’s about the money…

It’s all right. I am not all that angry. We all know these days, everyone is feeling the blow of inflation except for the delusional 1%. But my wallet hurts when I play a subpar adventure game. For $24.99, you could buy several adventurous horror games out there for the price of one during Steam’s sale. I remember for $1.99, I had a blast with The Cat Lady. This visual novel feels like reading an encyclopedia on the historical context surrounding Japanese mermaids. And the over the top theatrical character’s animation is not cutting it. It’s annoying.

Oh, I sure appreciate the subtle insult. Once again another game poking fun at its audience.

That’s a wrap up for my Spring reading and gaming update as of March. Until next time, be well.

Things that help Me Stay Calm

anime style Asian girl with glasses reading a book

I like to keep track of the books I want to read on an Excel spreadsheet. This way, I can stay focused. So far, it has been working. I have been reading more. However, I didn’t enjoy checking off a book once I finished reading it. I started to feel like I was on a reading conquest. It was as if I were turning into a dark soul, losing sight of why I was reading. Was I trying to become the Scholar of the First Sin? So, this year I won’t abandon my list, but I will only refer to it when I need a reminder. It helps take off a huge mental load. Also, having books nearby and visible encourage me to pick up a book instead of my phone. Keeping up with current news can be tiring. Everything is just bad news.

I found more solace in books than in following the news, hoping that things would turn out for the better. Mass employment in the headlines? Europe potentially going to war because of Greenland? The price of groceries skyrocketing. Not a good sign. Anyway, I realized if the world is going to burn, I am just going to read books to stay sane. The books/manga I am currently reading are:

The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas
Dune by Frank Herbert
Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follet
Grimm’s Fairy Tales Volume III
Monster Volume IV by Naoki Urasawa

Here are some of the books I would love to read this year. Some books I have had for a while.

My Antonia by Willa Cather
The Time Machine by H.G. Wells
The Sea Wolf by Jack London
The Call of the Wild by Jackon London
Les Misérables by Victor Hugo
Coriolanus by Shakespeare

Gaming

As for games, I went back to Demon’s Souls (Ps3). It is probably the only game I will play for the entire year. It’s a peaceful, difficult game. What can I say? I am a slow gamer. Plus, I got to make time for others things too such as gathering healthy recipes. Although sometimes it feels like work.

I finished the demo of Trails in the sky 1st chapter. It was fun!

Final Thoughts

I hope you will find some solitary moments away from this chaotic world. It’s hard to escape to video games these days when real world events feel like a circus show. I guess everyone is a star in this crazy reality T.V show.

Note: Featured image is AI generated. I am impressed that it captured the right mood for this post. The funny thing it looks like she is wearing my old reading glasses. It’s broken now.

Rediscovering White Fang: A Review

I am feeling nostalgia for simpler days. So, I purchased a used copy of White Fang by Jack London at the local bookstore. I found it while I was browsing books for fun. It’s one of the books my 4th-grade teacher read to us. At the time, I couldn’t appreciate it like every other coming-of-age book. I remember thinking why is our teacher reading this boring book to us? Most of us fell asleep at our desk. Me? I was staring outside the window. Now that I am around her age, I think I understand why she picked this book. She was trying to civilize us wild schoolchildren and it worked like magic!

Anyway, the book is so good. It fell apart midway through as I was reading it. Okay, I confess, that’s half the truth. The book was already in poor condition when I bought it. On the back of the book, there is a coffee stain! But for $1.50, I cannot resist. I also like the book’s cover. It looks old-fashioned. The large print is also appealing. After all, a book is less valuable if it’s just on the bookshelf as decor. Books are meant to be explored and read.

White Fang on top of other books and pink pen next to it

Synoposis

White Fang is a wolf, but is also a quarter dog. This makes him a special creature. He is wild but also domesticated. Thus he has an advantage over purebred dogs and wolves. His hybrid breeding enables him to navigate the harsh Yukon environment, and the brutality of the man-gods (humans) he encounters.  As he goes through different man-gods, White Fang comes to civilization once he meets the rightful one. The rightful one is just, fair, compassionate, and strong.

Writing Style

I was instantly captivated by the writing style. The prose is so poetic. The first paragraph of the book throws me into the cold wilderness. I feel it:

The land itself was a desolation, lifeless, without movement, so lone and cold that the spirit of it was not even that of sadness.

I also like how the author describes the wild as a frozen-hearted savage. It’s the perfect stage where dog eats dog to survive. The writing is so intense that I felt as if I were in the book!

There were a few things, however, I did not enjoy about the book. It was more of a personal thing, though. After all, the book was published in 1906. Time has changed. Perhaps, not always for the better for some folks, but regardless, time has changed. I don’t know how I’d feel living inside a white picket fence governed by a self-righteous man-god. I would find it difficult, especially when he is unfairly transactional.

Final Thoughts

Overall, it’s a great book, but one that feels foreign to me now, and yet familiar. It’s a weird feeling that I cannot describe. It’s comforting; at the same time, alienating. I guess being an adult means learning how to think for oneself. We are all shaped by our environment.

Setting Realistic Goals for the New Year

Every year, I like to challenge myself by setting a goal. Normally, I set small achievable goals. But I never set small goals to achieve bigger goals. I want to do that for next year. My blog has been stagnant and small for quite some time. But that’s all right. I am still blogging all these years despite my “failure”. After all, my greatest motivation is my passion! I also have some personal goals I would love to achieve apart from this blog’s growth. I hope you will join me!

Reading Goal

I started The Left Hand of Darkness at the beginning of this year, but had to put it aside. I was waiting for that moment to be wowed. I heard it’s a great classic science fiction. I want to give the book another chance. However, that wasn’t the real reason why I picked it up. I don’t think I read enough books by female authors. I just happened to remember this book. A couple of years ago, a coworker said Ursula Le Guin is ahead of her time. Jotting down notes as I read would probably help me sort out this difficult book. I am already halfway. This will be one of my goals for next year.

Another book I plan to read next year is Dune by Frank Herbert. I have not seen the movie. What inspired me to read the book was actually from playing the Bookwalker, ironically. In the game, there is a book called the Heart of Sand. I was interested in its world-building. As the game was starting to build momentum, the game ended short.

game inspires my reading goal
The lack of gameplay in this game inspires me to pick up a book instead.

I love reading, but oddly, it makes me melancholic when I think too deeply. So I have to balance it out with gaming. That’s why I don’t mind playing silly games or simple puzzle games. I don’t always want to think abstractly unless there’s humor in it. Gaming helps me live a little when life is already so serious.

Gaming Goal

Sometimes, I feel like a kid in a candy store, getting all excited with so many cool games. Then I exhausted myself mentally on what to play. So my goal for next year is to stay focused on the games I already have in my Steam library. However, I did get sidetracked by all the demos out there. I tried Trails in the Sky: First Chapter, Rosewater, and Unicorn Overlord. They are all fun! Out of the demos, I’ve been enjoying the Trails in the Sky: First Chapter demo immensely. I have been wanting to play the series for a long time, but I shy away because of its length. I am certain that I am going to love the entire game. It has that JRPG charm.

Characters defining what a bracer does
I am always up for a feel-good type of game. The soundtrack is also pretty catchy!

I play demos as if I am trying food at the buffet. But my main course meal is Walking Dead Definitive Edition. I am on Season 2, episode 2. Been enjoying the game as well! I also plan to play.Hack//G.U. Last Recode. I am feeling nostalgia. A good laugh is the greatest medication in this chaotic world, but food is also important!

Cooking Goal

Planning meals has always been a struggle for me since food is not the first thing on my mind. I came to realize that cooking healthy meals requires some special attention. When I go out, there are not many healthy options to pick from for a quick meal. So I just eat apples and bananas. Fruits alone are not a balanced diet. So I have learn how to be more creative. I have been hunting down recipes online. I don’t expect myself to be a great cook overnight. But I do think finding good recipes is a good start. Practice makes perfect, and who doesn’t love food? The only issue with watching so many cooking channels on YouTube is that I ended up not cooking anything extravagant! An egg sandwich is quick and easy enough for me.

cooking goal to make sandwhiches
I came a long way from burnt toast! That I can boast!

Final Thoughts

These goals are challenging to me because they require me to focus. I pick challenging goals and things I am not so good at for a reason. We can’t grow and build resistance if we are complacent. For example, I am skilled at action-adventure games but not RPGs (strategic turn-based games). I read mainly classics, but have not read many science fiction books. I can cook breakfast meals, but I’d like to learn how to cook a fancy dinner. So, yeah, I purposely challenge myself. It makes life more interesting, and it humbles me. After all, a healthy mind makes the world a better place.

I hope this blog post inspires you in whatever goal you have next year. Whether it is small or big, I hope you achieve it!

A little Blog Update

Now that I am back from vacation, I completed my first playthrough of Song of Horror. I am replaying the game because there are multiple playable characters, and each character has its own dialogue. Each time I replay the episode with a different character, I learn something new. I am enjoying the structure of the game. I will discuss more about the game in detail at a later time.

I hope I am not the only one playing the game. I enjoyed it that much that I plan to get a copy for PC.

As I was reading my older blog posts: My Thoughts on Art, Creativity and Blogging and What’s in a Name?, I realized I spent a lot of time writing for this blog that I don’t have time for other creative projects. I am trying to find a good balance without abandoning this blog entirely.

erica staring at her guitar
Like Erica from Song of Horror, I too would love to “spend the day here, chilling and playing guitar.”

With that being said, I am being more selective with games. Play games that I want to play and not just check off a list. Recently, I have been wanting to go back to PlayStation 2 games. One of them is Echo Night: Beyond, and the other is Shadow of Hearts. Playing Song of Horror made me appreciate retro games. They are more artistic and methodical than modern games, and oddly more therapeutic for my mental health.

I like challenging games and books but I am not that competitive, so I never understood how people can get an ego boost from completing so many books and games within a year. I’ve learned to accept that I prefer to do things at a slower pace. I can see myself savoring Song of Horror. The game is challenging enough for me to want to platinum it, but I have not decided yet. Apart from gaming, I am trying to finish  Germinal by Émile Zola, so that I can focus on Monster, the manga. You might see some upcoming thoughts on these two items. Lastly, I am going through old posts and updating them, so you might see that as well. Of course, some might say no one actually cares about these updates. I like to forewarn my readers for consistency purposes because I am one of those readers who notice the little detail.

Hunchback of Notre-Dame, the Collapsed Sanctuary

All of the characters except for Master Pierre Gringoire met their tragic end because of love. Quasimodo died from a broken heart when he failed to protect La Esmeralda who was the only person who showed him genuine kindness when he needed most; La Esmeralda died for loving the false savior, the King’s Archer Phoebus de Châteaupers who could care less if she died in captivity for being framed as his murderer; Captain Phoebus died (mentally) when he got married because that means no more night out at the brothel;  the recluse from the rat-hole died from trying to protect her daughter from being captured by the King’s guards; and lastly, the Archdeacon Claude Frollo died under God’s will for he was a priest who can never pursue La Esmeralda like a normal man. Only Gringoire, the poet, escaped death because he found love in stones:

First, I love women, then animals. Now I love stones. They are quite as amusing as women and animals and less treacherous.

-Gringoire (p.477)

I find that quote quite amusing because there is some truth to it, although I would have crossed out the ‘women’ part in the quote and inserted ‘men’ instead. Joke aside. In literature, we call characters like Gringoire, a comic relief because the subject of this story is quite serious. I don’t think I would like the book as much if Gringoire had not made me laugh. He was the only character I felt safe around La Esmeralda, because he wasn’t interested in deflowering her. But why is this important? No pun intended, because no one wants to get screwed! Indeed, she did get trapped in a web like a fly:

“A bewildered fly, which was seeking the March sun, flung itself through the net and became entangled there. On the agitation of his web, the enormous spider made an abrupt move from his central cell, then one bound rushed upon the fly, which he folded together with his fore antennae, while his hideous proboscis dug into the victim’s head (p.338)”

This passage is about La Esmeralda. She was like the bewildered fly trapped in a big spider web (Notre-Dame) and was later sentenced to death by the King (the big spider) because he is the protector of Notre-Dame. The King under God’s absolute authority was too deaf and blind to grant clemency to La Esmeralda, who was accused of murdering Captain Phoebus (he wasn’t even dead, btw). And Archdeacon Frollo allowed fate to take its course by not saving La Esmeralda when she rejected his love. If he cannot have her, then no one can. That was his logic (p.574). Do you see why I said jokingly that men are treacherous? How could she love an assassin who forces her to follow him and make him her master, her savior? We cannot force people to be with us. That’s imprisonment.

Minus the love drama, the book is about how human thoughts and beliefs change the structure of society over time.   The invention of the printing press killed the architecture because each book is each person’s thoughts and when you add them all up together, it’s bigger than one architecture that represented millions of people (p.227). That is how the architecture loses its authoritative voice in the society. That is why Victor Hugo the author, introduces the reader to the Feast of Fools in the first chapter to forewarn the reader on what is yet to come by making a mockery out of the elected Pope by having him switch places with Quasimodo, the hunchback, one-eyed, deaf bellringer of Notre-Dame. He may be a “one-eyed man [but he] is far less complete than a blind man. He knows what he lacks (p.66), unlike the Pope, the King, and the rest of the aristocrats. Because “[without clemency,] they are but blind men groping after God in the dark (p.540).”  It made sense to me why La Esmeralda and her goat were mocking the captain of the city’s pistoleers and the king’s procurator in the ecclesiastical court during their street performance in the earlier part of the book. These high officials don’t provide justice; they are just aristocratic clowns on public display. Not only did she captivate the crowd, but she also bewitched the Archdeacon to the point that he attempted to kidnap her with Quasimodo so that she would stop polluting his mind with impure thoughts with the little pout she always made. The truth is something within her has awakened his soul. Was it love, or was it the eternal life he was searching for that he couldn’t find it in science or alchemy? In the end, it was the vagabonds and Quasimodo who tried to save Esmeralda from the power grip of evil men. They were the real savior. The introduction of the Feast of Fools was indeed a mockery of the failed belief system in Paris during 1482.

For my final thoughts, out of all the characters, I pitied Archdeacon Frollo the most even though Quasimodo is just as unfortunate. Being a learned man had turned him into a rigid priest and a very sad one (p.194). When you are always seeking knowledge, you leave yourself with no room to connect with other humans. It’s a lonely place to feel like you are above everyone. Lastly, I find the passage about writers are the new masons (p.230) quite interesting. What would Victor Hugo think about the internet?! He would say the programmers are the new writers! You see, the “Architecture is the great book of humanity, the principal expression of man in his different stages of development, either as a force or as an intelligence (p.216).” When the printing press came into existence in the mid-1400s, humans transferred their beliefs from stones to books, and so the architectures no longer have the tyrannical authority over society’s beliefs; it became art or a symbol of the past, just like Notre-Dame of Paris. Now books are becoming a symbol of the past as digital contents are more popular among the mass. The human mind is indeed the architecture of humanity. So yeah, “All civilization begins in theocracy and ends in democracy (p.218).”

Note:  I read the unabridged version published by Fingerprint. Also, the featured image for the blog post is by AI. Pardon me if it looks kind of odd. I believe it’s because it lacks a human soul.

Making a Checklist for Books & Games

Have you ever had a hard time deciding whether you like something or not? I have had many experiences playing games and reading books. Sometimes I cannot pinpoint why I don’t enjoy something as much as I should. So, I like to write out my thoughts in the form of a review. Unfortunately, these days, I don’t have that luxury anymore. The truth is, my work (apart from my health) has been so demanding that all of my hobbies were at a standstill. It’s already close to the middle of the year. I have only completed three games: Spirit of the North, developed by Infuse Studio; Xanadu Next, developed by Nihon Falcom; and the Bookwalker, developed by Do My Best. No time for mental health and recreation is not good. So here I am back with one of my favorite pastime activities: making a list. I have always found it therapeutic to make a list of books and games because it helps me clear my mind and stay focused.

Out of the three games I’ve played this year, the one I enjoyed the most is Xanadu Next. The game design is superb, however, the game is buggy. I had to restart a boss fight three times! If you enjoy a soul-like game, then this game is a treat. Well, I believe this game came before the souls franchise. Playing this game made me realized how much I enjoy treasure hunting, good level design and challenging games.

Bride wearing black vein
The Black Bride from Xanadu Next

Which brings me to the next game I will be playing. Spontaneously, I decided I needed something more relaxing and casual. I dipped my foot into Skyrim Definitive Edition and Oblivion Remastered because I want to transport myself into a fantasy world that’s not too brutal. So far, I have been enjoying these two games. Then I realized I have Eiyuden Chronicle: Hundred Heroes, which I started last year, but never completed. At the time, anything that required a big time investment, I shied away. Now that things are settling down a bit, I can sit down and relax with a good RPG. Recruiting heroes is fun. But so far, I enjoy the cooking challenge the most and have found collecting recipes to be just as fun as recruiting interesting characters. This game is my ideal game of what I call relaxing.

Currently, I don’t have a recipe that will beat my opponent. His ramen is delicious.

As for my reading list, I only have a handful of unread books. I created a list of books I would eventually love to read, but do not have a set time to complete them. If you are reading for pleasure, why set a goal? These pastime activities should be a form of relaxation. I have been quite satisfied with what I have read so far. I completed Beast Warriors  Beast Player by Nahoko Uehashi and The Tenant of Wildfell Hall by Anne Brontë. Currently reading The Hunch Back of Notre Dame by Victor Hugo. I enjoy the books mainly for their beautiful metaphors.

When I was researching ways to organize my reading and gaming list, I came across other apps and sites that help with just that, but I adore my blog. Why abandon it for something else like Notion? I can simply use WordPress tools to organize a list and create a separate page for my blog so I can go back to check off my reading list. Notion, Steam, Instagram, Goodreads, Amazon, and Google have a good section for reviewing items, but I think I am perfectly fine with my scattered notes and images here on this blog until WordPress decides to shut down.

So, do you have a way of organizing your books and games or other media you consume? I am extremely curious. Perhaps you can share 1 or 2 tips.

Credits: the images on this blog post are taken from Xanadu Next and Eiyuden Chronicle: Hundred Heroes

My Year End Wrap~

I wish I could say I beat a lot of games this year when realistically I only finished a few games:Ghost of Tsushima, Tales of black forest, Mandemon, Silent Hill the Message, and Remothered: Broken Porcelain. That’s not an impressive list, I know. On the contrary, Steam reminded me I played 30 games in total. 17 of them were demos. Now that I think of it, I did replay Nightcry and Shenmue III and started up a bunch of games. I suppose that is considered gaming, but yeah, the graph below doesn’t lie. I didn’t play all that much. Life got in the way…

graph for 2024 on Steam
Gaming Sessions on Steam

During days I don’t play games, I spend more time reading and watching movies to balance things out. Some notable movies I watched were Alien Anthology and Planet of the Apes trilogy.  Recently I also finished Claymore the anime series. As for books, you can read the blog posts here:

I also read two children’s books that are full of wisdom: The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry and Coraline by Neil Gaiman. This brings me to the topic: why didn’t I publish more blog posts?  Why did I downgrade my blog plan and not renew my domain? The answer is simple: any down time I have, I try to give my eyes a rest from the screen, which I learned recently from an ophthalmologist that I don’t blink enough when I stare at the screen and that I have narrow angles eyes which explains my constant headaches and eye pressure. Left untreated, I could go blind. Luckily, I had surgery, so I will be okay. Secondly, I have been wanting to do something more relaxing. One of my passions is to become a better cook but that hasn’t been too successful since planning and gathering ingredients can be so time consuming. It took me several trials and errors to get my mom’s chicken soup right. When I did achieve it, I felt so happy. Yet, I still have a long way to go to build a book of recipes that I could come home to.

Despite investing less time with this blog, I am feeling excited for the New Year. I still plan to tackle my backlog and play at my own pace. Blog whenever I can. So far, I am ending the year with Tales of Symphonia. After Tales of Symphonia, I will play Death Mark II. Then I am looking forward to playing Xandu Next.  In addition to my backlog, I am adding Spirit of the North and Deadly Premonition 2. Here are the rest of my list for next gaming year:

  • The Bookwalker (Steam)
  • Teslagrad 2 (Steam)
  • Tales of Berseria (Steam)
  • Tales of Vesperia (Ps4)
  • Tales of Xesteria (Digital psn)
  • Songs of Horror (Digital psn)

Initially, I started this blog with a title: “Older games have more charm” because I want to replay Parasite Eve on the Ps1. Unfortunately, time flies so quickly that I never got the chance to play it and review it for Christmas. I learned that If you want to enjoy a game you stick to it and play it thoroughly despite all of the distraction from video games sales and releases. For instance, I want to play Unicorn Overlord, but it’s only made for consoles. I don’t really own a Switch or a PS5, so it might be hard to play those exclusive games. I have thought of investing in Switch 2 when it does come out or a Switch. But I don’t know yet because I am also interested in Steam deck since I spend more time on Steam than any other sites. Another game I am interested in purchasing is Tales of Grace remastered. There are tons of cool-looking games coming out which makes it difficult to focus on a game. So, whenever I start up a new game, I give myself about 45 minutes. If I am still not into the game then I just drop it. I don’t feel the pressure to complete games anymore.

Anyway, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Hopefully, you are enjoying a good game. I know I have been enjoying Tales of Symphonia remastered very much!

brrr.. it’s cold

Picture credits: Featured image is Presea from Tales of Symphonia

What I Read in February

I thought I would do each review for each separate book but I didn’t want to spend too much time writing essay-like reviews. So, instead, I write mini-reviews. Hope you enjoy!

Lavina

Sometimes when you are quiet, you sort of get looked over. Pretty much you’re invisible. It’s sort of like Lavina, an important character that is mentioned briefly in Virgil’s epic poem, the Aeneid. She is the last wife to Aeneas the Trojan hero. In this novel, the author Ursula K. Le Guin attempts to give her a voice by retelling the epic poem through her perspective. Overall, it was a lovely read with a feminist streak that doesn’t victimize femininity as a lesser role:

The chief duty of a king is to perform the rites of praise and placation as they should be performed, to observe care and ceremony and so understand and make known the will of the powers that are greater than we are. It is the king who tells the farmer when to plow…In the same way, it is the mother of the family who tells the household when to rise.

-Lavina, p. 205-206

Lord of the Flies

What a poetic read. Lord of the Flies was epically horrifying, although I can’t say I entirely agree with the author’s opinion about Indians (I don’t think they are savages). However, I do agree with the author’s point of view for the most part. The author argues that society is prone to collapse into a primitive state when we fail to think sensibly. What better way to illustrate the point by putting a group of schoolboys on an island? As I was reading this book, I wondered how different the story would be if it were a group of girls. Do you think the world would be nicer? Nah…it would be just as bad. Where there are people, there will always be politics because the true nature of humans is the beast itself. It’s scary to think a beast has so much control over the mass but what is more scarier is that we allow it. The Lord of the Flies is no different from the Lord of the Corpse.

Well, that’s it for now. These are the two books I finished in February. On top of gaming, I am currently reading Persuasion by Jane Austen and Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follet but probably will drop Pillars of the Earth if I feel too uncomfortable. I haven’t gone far enough into the book, but I heard the rape scenes are quite violent and unecessary. On the other hand, if Oprah Winfrey vouched for the book then it must not be so bad because so far, I think the story is pretty interesting.

Making a List Is Therapeutic for the Creative Soul

Around this time of year, I tend to make a list of upcoming games and books I plan to play and/or read. I wonder why. Back in the days when I was a teen, I would have played anything that was given to me, including free games on the PC; and I would have read anything in front of me.   Now these days, I am more picky—really picky to the point of relying heavily on reviews, trailers, and word of mouth to determine a purchase.

For instance, looking at my Wishlist, I have been debating whether to pick  Remothered: Broken Porcelain after reading several negative reviews stating the same thing over and over about how buggy the game is.  Still, a part of me wants to go ahead and purchase the game since it’s on sale but I have been on the fence with this game for almost two years now! I am pretty sure the game is not as bad as reviewers make it out to be— but I don’t think it’s worth the time to play unpolished games regardless of its potential. Plus, I recently purchased Song of Horror and Tormented Soul. Games that are supposed to have the old school, survival horror third-person view aesthetic. They are next in line of games to play-but I do need a break from horror. As much as I enjoy horror for the adrenaline rush, too much of it is not good. So, I have been playing Strange Horticulture and Divinity Original Soul Enhanced Edition instead. I am 36 hours into Divinity! I found myself in the middle of the night playing before bedtime, trying to figure things out. Time sure flies when you are having fun. I like the game-play. It’s a turned based game that involves some strategy. Some people described the game as pen and paper experience, which unfortunately I have never played a tabletop game. But what I like most about the game is its lightheartedness on the seriousness of the plot: I am a source hunter; I hunt down evil sorcerers. The diverse voice acting makes the tone of the game theatrical and entertaining. One character sounds Russian the other sounds Southern and yes there is even an English accent thrown in the mix. It’s dramatic. Even the animals are voice dubbed by real humans which only add more charm to the game. Overall, it has good vibes with relaxing original soundtracks.

Halloween Scarecrow
I thought it was cool that there was a pumpkin scarecrow in the game. 

Looking back at my older post toward the end of 2022, I made a list of games to complete for the upcoming year. I accomplished some. Not all. I have completed Soma, Eyuiden Rising, Elden Ring, AI: Sominum Files, and Whisper of Machines. I also picked a game to play randomly this year: The Last Guardian, Fatal Frame IV, Zero Time Dilemma and Final Fantasy XII. I enjoyed all of them, but I am feeling a little burnt out from gaming in general. I find myself wanting to do other activities that are good for my mental health such as reading a good book or painting. Actually, I am currently reading Charlotte’s Web by E.B White. This book was on my reading list from one of my blog’s posts:Three Films that Make Me Want to Read the Book

Fern holding Wilbur
I appreciate Charlotte’s Web so much more than I did when I was in elementary school! 

Making a list type blog post and sharing it with the world feels like a form of commitment. I want to set bigger goals next year so that means I will scale back from gaming a bit. Sometimes by the time I finish a game, I don’t have the mental energy to write a review because behind the “writing scene”, there’s a lot of writing, revising, and editing. After all the hard work, I still find minor errors (*sighs*). As they say a second set of eyes are better than one. Over the years, I have learned that there is a lot of work behind maintaining a blog, and what drives me is my love for writing and creating content. When I look back at what I have written, I am amazed at my dedication. It’s something I would have never recognized if I didn’t put in the work. Most of all, I learned that I am always evolving. Sure, the blog doesn’t pay the bills, but it pays to keep me sane. So, I suppose everything balances itself out for the time being.